I am Thankful and Grateful : Day 29

I am thankful for my mommy.

When I was younger I had friends who hated their mom.  I could never understand that.  I always have had a good relationship with mine.  I didn't hate her or want to run away from home to get out of the house.  Hell if I hadn't gotten married when I did the first time I would have still lived at home for a few more years.  Sad yes I know.  But I did my part.  I had a full time job and I paid my bills and helped around the house.  

My mom and I are very close.  I love her to pieces and could not imagine life without her in it.   I have had friends and people I know that have lost a parent(mom).  I can't even fathom what that is like.  I don't want to.  I am a hardcore mama's girl and I don't think that I could handle it. 

When I was little she did everything that she could for me.  At one point she worked two jobs to support us.  Even though we didn't get to spend much time together she was doing what she had to do.  At that time I didn't see the bigger picture.  But when I got older I did.  I never hated her for it.  We never had much money back then.  But she always tried to make things special.  One year for Christmas I wanted a Barbie car badly.  Christmas morning came and I opened my presents.  They were little things and things like socks and undies.  She had hidden another present that I had to find.  My Barbie car.  That was my big gift that year, because we couldn't afford more.  But I didn't care.  That stupid hot pink car was the best.  

Its true what they say that you don't fully appreciate your parents until you are older.  I always thought that my mom was up my butt too much.  Always asking where I was going who was I going with, when would I be home.  But that was love.  She did it because she cared.  The only time she didn't push as much is if I was with Ian(male BFF, brutha from anotha mutha).  Everything was cool if I was with him.  I know that mom didn't always do things perfect, but she was my mom and I knew I was loved always.  She worked hard for what we had.  I am very protective of my mom.  Don't mess with her or you deal with me.  She is special to me like you could even imagine. 

The smallest things make me think of my mom.  If its shiny and purple she will love it.  If its Vera she will love it.  I was her personal shopper while I worked at Kohl's.  I would call her and say "Mom that Vera dress you have been eye balling for a while is on clearance...I put it on hold for you".  No really I did it a few times.  I love to go shopping with her even if its to Wally World.  It doesn't really matter as long as we are getting in some girl time.  

A Mother's Prayer ~ Celine Dion

I pray you'll be my eyes

And watch her where she goes

And help her to be wise

Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer

Every child knows

Lead her to a place

Guide her with your grace

To a place where she'll be safe

I pray she finds your light

And holds it in her heart

As darkness falls each night

Remind her where you are

Every mother's prayer

Every child knows

Need to find a place

Guide her with your grace

Give her faith so she'll be safe

Lead her to a place

Guide her with your grace

To a place where she'll be safe

(song perfect and fitting since its Celine, she loves her)

Mom I love you so much.  I am thankful for the woman you have helped me to become.  I hope that I show my boys the type of love and support that you have always shown me.  You are my bestest bestest friend.  I have have not forgotten all that you have done for me through the years.  You are an amazing beautiful woman, that many say looks like my sister!  Thank you so much for being that coolest most awesome mom that a girl could ever ask for.  Kisses.